if the walls could talk

I've been feeling a little stuck about a recent event in my life. For legal reasons I can't disclose too much information because I know a few of my co-workers read my blog. I've been thinking about how something someone did who was not only a co-worker but a personal friend of mine is going to effect my personal life. Usually when something happens at work I am able to come home, relax with my hubby and disconnect from any drama that may have happened.

Well in light of recent events I have not been able to do that. I come home and the events that took place are still on my mind. I wonder if I am thinking too much about it or if I could have even prevented or noticed something earlier on. I wonder why this person never came to me for help like they had so many times before?

I was sitting in the office at work today writing a note to our General Manager and I just sat there thinking about how many events the walls had witnessed behind closed doors when the person in the office thought no one was around but themselves.

On Sat. the walls were screaming, screaming for the truth to come out...if only they could talk.

All I want is to know the truth and know that what I am feeling in my heart about the situation is right. Should I feel guilty? Should I feel guilty for not trusting the word of someone I really really cared about or should I feel guilty for believing the evidence that proves that this person in my life did something wrong....

This something wrong isn't something small but something major and makes it hard for me to know if I can trust them. I let this person into my life on a personal level outside of work (which I don't do often) and into my home (on MANY occasions).

I'm not sure if we will ever work things out and talk and figure everything out. Its just hard knowing that I have possibly lost a friendship with someone that I was REALLY close to all because of selfish stupidity.